Rebuttal

April 23, 2006

For a friend who insists on telling me it’s not that bad because it’s all in my head. Imagine (or recall):

• The feeling of sinking into the depths upon waking up in the middle of a dream where you were reliving the single best event in your entire life in full technicolor…

• The deadly disappointment of the worst moment in your life– not the worst thing that’s ever happened to you, necessarily, but the worst thing you’ve ever done…

• The single most intense and immense regret you wake with at 3am of a life-changing choice taken or not taken…

Put this poisonous concoction together and drink it and have it become you. Suffer, but don’t die. Live this feeling practically every minute of every day of your life– a life that feels slowed down to a crawl, the slow motion of a car crash– tainting even the best things that happen to you.

That’s a normal day.
[ruminate psyche]

Tags: Psyche