“DCM is characterized by ventricular chamber enlargement, systolic dysfunction, sudden death, and heart failure.”
Why then do I feel worse about the suspicion that I was a disappointment when meeting an online friend for the first time?
“Heart failure due to DCM is a lethal disease, with a 5-year mortality rate of 75%.”
What’s the mortality rate associated [...]

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(provoked by a line in Dionisio D. Martinez’s poem “Avant-Dernières Pensées”)
I read about an old fisherman who, as a young man, loved a woman who left their village unexpectedly and without a word. The weeks went by and eventually he stopped looking for her in every lit window and across every street. Then he received [...]

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Mine assures me that not only will I make it, I’ll actually thrive. But does adversity include a snake seeking the frog in my throat or my mother calling me by my dead brother’s name? Does the unforeseen include what I knew but refused to admit could happen to me, the one I love in [...]

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I wake from only an hour of sleep with a dream that I’m holding her. It was grey and we were waiting for morning. There was no danger, just time. We went to sleep apart and I woke on my side, cradling her. There was fire where our clothed bodies touched. I could see the [...]

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I love discovering ephemera inside used books or buried beneath the couch cushions. Apparently, so do a lot of other people. There’s an interesting book called Found: The Best Lost, Tossed, and Forgotten Items from Around the World. The website for Found Magazine has some cool stuff and, of course, Grocery Lists galore!
[cosmopoetica, lost, found]

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Record high Fall heat and it’s finally getting dark. Forest fire haze all around, but the stars still visible above. The only sound is the breeze shuffling through the leaves. If the night could last forever I would just walk straight off the trail. To the mountains. Eventually to the sea. Finally to somewhere I [...]

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The first fifteen songs iTunes produced in shuffle mode today:

Miles Davis - You’re My Everything
Cake - Short Skirt, Long Jacket
Keane - Can’t Stop Now
Radiohead - Fake Plastic Trees
The Libertines - Can’t Stand Me Now
Billie Holiday - God Bless the Child
Jackie McLean - Love and Hate
Bobbi Humphrey - Fun House
The Trashcan Sinatras - Hay Fever
Breaking Benjamin [...]

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I’ve been thinking about lightning lately. Rainstorms are rarely seen here, though the thunder of lightning’s electric passage can be heard. As are the inevitable forest fires that follow. Alaska is BIG, which is easy to forget when you’ve been here a long time. It’s easy to get focused on the provincial, to act as [...]

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I’m on a park bench talking to my ex-wife when George Bush sits down next to me. Mistaking my haircut for a sign of military service he asks me how it feels to be home after being ‘in country.’ I feel betrayed, I tell him. No one understands me. It’s like I don’t talk the [...]

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